KG's Hideaway

Over the last several weeks, a few months really, I've just had a really good feeling about things. I've got one holdout (more on that in a moment) but overall, I feel extremely positive about things.

Ryan has had several different friends here at the house over the last few days, and I've actually enjoyed all of them. Some of them are girls that play against her but they are just a group of really sweet girls... likeable girls. Ryan and I have also spent alot of time talking lately. We talk alot all the time but our talks had more substance to them and sort of focused on some long term goals... or at least laying the groundwork for setting them.

The girls have lots only one district game and are ranked #2 in the area and #4 in the state. Thats AWESOME!!!

After Tuesday night's game Ryan went out with some friends of hers so I took Kyra to dinner just so I could spend some time with her. We had a fantastic time laughing and cutting up, but I could tell she was waiting on me to tell her what I really wanted to talk about, so I took a deep breath and just tossed it out there. I told her that I'd had a horrible dream the night before in which her father passed away. She had really sad look on her face, so I reassured her that it was JUST a dream, that her dad was in great health and had no plans of leaving any time soon. She relaxed and cracked some silly joke (like, do I at least get all of dad's money?" or something like that) and seemed back to normal.

After we joked I told her that I really wanted to talk to her about what could/would happen if he DID die. I asked her if she would want to continue living with me if that were to ever happen and she, without skipping a single beat, said, "Oh YEAH!! It was a very difficult conversation because I had to explain to her that even though I feel like she belongs with me (father or not) but that if anything ever happened to him I would probably have a tough time retaining custody over her mother. Although her mother has no part of her life, I do believe she loves her. When I told Kyra this she said, "Yeah, I guess she does but she's not "my mom! Youre my mom!"

While that means the world to me, it might very well mean squat to a court. Hopefully, I'll never have to find out but it was really nice to see/hear that from her, especially when there was no particular reason for having the conversation. Kyra says shes actually happy these days.

Holy Crap! I think, if I did my math right, that means that ALL FIVE MEMBERS OF THIS FAMILY ARE HAPPY AT THE SAME TIME!!! Surely the grim reaper is on his way now!!!

In all seriousness, I have a horrible upper respiratory infaction, $6grand worth of dental work to be done over the next two months and about another $20grand worth of house remodling to go along with that $15grand we've already done. But its GOOD.... REALLY! Isn't that wierd?

Three or four months ago I settled my work comp case for a big ol chunk of change, Craig got two raises in three months adding about $80k a year to his salary. We've gotten trips, gifts, all kinds of little perks from this company so I'm not complaining about this!!!

The only negative blip on my radar is my claustrophobia/anxiety issues are starting to crop up. I'll elaborate more later.