I Can't Breathe
This sucks. I don't like it at all! I don't know how, after all these weeks, I'm not just STILL sick but feeling worse! OMG this is driving me nuts. The doctor said this year's strain of the flu is awful and would hang around for weeks but I'm now going on 5 weeks with whatever this is and just when I think I'm getting better I start sliding backwards. Shit, this sucks. Ryan and Kyra are just as miserable. The worst part of it isn't the runny nose or sore throat that has been there now for four weeks... it's the ear drums that feel like they are going to burst. God, it feels like a stick of dynamite has gone off behind them.
Top all of this off with the fact that my lungs are still horribly congested and I just can't breathe. It causes nasty panic attacks. I have medicine for it, but it isn't working because it's pretty much negated by the medicine they've given me for asthma. I've never had asthma but they've decided that in the last year I've somehow "acquired" it. I don't know how you acquire it at my age and I'm not sure I'm buying into it. I think I'm going to change doctors. I'm so fed up with medicine. God damnit. Just inhaling that shit makes my hands shake, my heart race... it's like speed, or 20 cups of coffee. Terrible.