Frustration Much?
I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm feeling frustrated and listless and like I'm searching for something but my brain won't tell me what it is. Maybe it's just the time of year... I don't know.
I feel like getting in my truck and driving for hours with the music blaring and the windows rolled down. That always leaves me feeling more calm and less like I need to run. That's how I used to deal with stress, but now that I don't have to deal with Marshall it's not often I feel that way. (God, I can't even believe I used his name on here. Blech!)
Maybe things will settle in when we head to Austin next week (end). Four days in Austin ought to be enough to relieve that feeling. Plus, I'm looking really forward to seeing Reisha and her family. We've been friends since 7th grade (don't do the math... it's too depressing! LOL) and I really enjoy her company.
My uncle's body is supposed to be back from Memphis today. Then the plans for his funeral can be solidified. I think my aunt will be much more able to focus once she knows "he's" back here. I'm going over there tomorrow to help keep my grandmother company until my dad and his sister get back from the funeral home. It's depressing to see my family shrinking so rapidly.
On a lighter (more twisted) note Ryan and I were talking about dying because she heard my aunt say that she knows Darrell would not want anyone crying for him. I told Ryan that when I'm gone they better cry... copious amounts and for a very long time. She thought that was pretty funny. I'm still not sure if I was playing or not!!! =o)