A better day
So last night was a little better. Craig came home from work early and took me to dinner. It was just the two of us because Austin and his girlfriend hung around here with Kyra and Ryan went to the volleyball and football game in Joshua.
I finally told him that I'd been pretty down the last two days but hiding it when he was around. He was pretty surprised because I'd been doing a good job of hiding it this time. He asked me what was wrong so I decided just to tell him... and here it all is.
A few years ago we found out that I most likely have Restless Leg Syndrome. It sucks. I take Neurontin (or gabapentin) for it and that mostly controls it but there are times when I go to bed that it doesn't and I just sit there literally pounding on my legs trying to make the feeling stop. I've long since stopped taking pain medicine on a regular basis though there are times since then that I have given in and taken some, but it's SO far in between that it isn't worth mentioning.
Anyway, some of the symptoms were increasing and I was reading up on them and I chased a lead that I was reading on the internet and it led me to another site and finally I got to a site for Multiple Slcerosis. I didn't panic... at first. I just kept reading, and reading. And reading. I have all the classic sypmtoms, every last one.
Yes, I know I need to go to a doctor and have it all checked out and I will as soon as I wrap my mind around and sort of calm down. I'm a little scared right now.