KG's Hideaway

Today I'm fighting a depression that is deeper than it has been in a while. I feel like I'm heading for a tailspin. I don't know... I'm not able to verbalize how I feel, it's sort of like there's a white hot pain in my chest and as it moves out towards my fingers it gets numb. That doesn't make any sense, I know but that's the only way I know how to put it. My brain feels like it's on fire yet when I look in the mirror my eyes look empty. I don't want to try and explain it to Craig because I feel so guilty. He doesn't deserve the shit I put him through and I guess he'll get sick of it at some point. Maybe he'll get lucky one of these days and I just won't wake up. He'll make bank on the insurance money at least. Yay.