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We're looking into getting Austin into a CAD program (computer aided design) or something. He really doesn't want to go to "school" right now and I don't blame him, but he wants to go to a trade school so he can just go through a focused education. That way he'll only have to take classes that have to do with the field he wants to work in, not history and science and all that other crap.

It's frustrating because he DOES want to get an engineering degree, just not right now. He doesn't understand how hard it us to go back to school later on. But Craig said he hires in his drafters at around $17-20/hr so Austin is either going to go through an entire trade program, which can vary between 9-15 months or just go through a CAD program at the local community college, which takes 3 months. If he takes the 3 month program Craig said he'll do some additional taining here at home with Austin and get him ready and then hire him on at work.

If Austin got that done it would be a great start for Austin, and to be honest he could make a nice living off that for the rest of his life whether he got a degree or not. There are plenty of people at Craig's company that don't have degrees and they're making $60-80k a year. It's not a ton of money, but he could support himself. It's where Craig started when he started with that company 6 years ago. It was a big cut in pay for Craig when we moved back from California and it scared that hell out of him to take that cut in pay, but this company does NICE increases on a very quick and regular schedule and they take good care of their people. It would be a good place for Austin. Great place... for anyone, really.

Today, actually yesterday, has been a better day. I didn't sleep well Friday night because I stayed on the phone with my mom until almost 4am and then didn't fall asleep until 6am so I slept until sometime in the afternoon when Craig got home from playing golf. He won his golf tournament, so I was happy for him ;0)

All I really did yesterday was work a little bit on dusting and cleaning my bedroom during the race and then I went back to bed. Craig was exhausted, too. I guess it was probably too soon after his surgery for him to try and play golf, but he needed to get out. All in all, I think we both just needed to slough off the stress from the week. That was our anniversary present to eachother.

It was good talking to my mom. We spent alot of time talking about things that happened after my grandmother died. That's right when my mom and I had our falling out so there were so many things I didn't know and it also explained alot about what went on between my mom and I. She said that she feels really bad about all the things that happened back then, and I believe her and accept it, but it's all still really hurtful. What started it wasn't my fault and she knows that (now) but once that fight got going and I got backed into a corner I came out swinging. If ANYone does that to me, it gets ugly and it gets ugly quick. I go for the jugular. I aim to hurt because I can't stand to be in that position and many times that's the only way to get someone off of you and make the situation "just stop".