4:56
4:56 am
Yes, I'm aware of how early it is and no, I don't know why I'm awake.
My sister came over yesterday. Doesn't seem like a big deal unless you know that until about two weeks ago we hadn't spoken to eachother in about a year and a half. She has held a massive grudge against me for years (since I was 18 and she was 15... 20 years) because I told my parents she was doing drugs. She was. I had the proof. My mother knew she was doing them but didn't want any shit started with my dad and she was afraid my sister was run away (that was actually what she said at the time) so she covered for my sister thereby causing massive amounts of trouble when my dad found said proof. (Alot of people may ask why I would even tell but my parents were very clear on one thing; tattling was bullshit unless you were telling on something that the other person was doing that would get them hurt or thrown in jail and that would get her BOTH!) Anyway- it caused alot of trouble and she never let me forget it and that, in turn, caused even more trouble. HUGE fights.
I've always told her that when she was ready to try again my door was open but that usually just pisses oher off more so it got to the point where the only thing left to do was not talk at all. It's sad, but it's true. There's WAY more to all of this mess but it'd take up the entire black hole of the universe to type it so I'll spare my fingers.
So anyway, she and I have been talking fairly often for the past two weeks and it's going ok for now. I think we're both being very cautious right now, though yesterday she did drop a few verbal land mines in front of me to see if I'd trip over them (while my daughter was standing there, too). Most of them I didn't bite at, but a couple of them I responded with a slightly defensive maneuver. My daughter said she thought the shit was about to hit the fan at one point because of something that was said and she turned and saw the look on my face since it took my so long to respond to it, but I was a good girl... hmph. Who'd a thunk it? And where my sister's concerned? Wow.
Anyway, so I'm gonna have a neice!! YAY!! I don't have a neice, I have all nephews.
Oh, there is some bad news. She doesn't have a job... and she's going through a divorce. Her soon-to-be-ex-husband's family owns a MAJOR NFL team. When I saw MAJOR, I DO mean major. By that, I mean they have been to the superbowl a couple of teams in your life time. They are paying for everything for him, plus he ran up bills on credit cards that my sister had (and she'd added his name to when they got married) so now she's stuck paying for them because he's maxed them out charging stuff for his business... then not paying the bill. Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnd, since she's not working, well you can guess what that's leading to. She's having to pay all her bills from her savings account and that is freaking her out. Plus, she's worried about everything in general.
BUT I'M GOING TO HAVE A NIECE! YAY!!!! Now I'm going to bed again. night!