KG's Hideaway

5-25-05 1:21pm

And so it continues...

Craig took off work this morning to go to Kyra's thing at the school. He pretty much showed he's incapable of standing behind his own words by doing so. He told her that as long as she wasn't being a part of "OUR" lives, we weren't going to be apart of hers. So I guess he's made his decision, then.

On a more cheerful front... today would have been my 20th wedding anniversary with Marshall. 20 fucking years. God, what the hell was I ever thinking? I married him the weekend after my highschool graduation like a fucking idiot. That divorce was the smartest thing I ever did for myself, and it's starting to look like I'll be doing it again. Seeing as how it was only 3 or 4 days ago I was just talking about how good my life with Craig is, it seems hard to even imagine but that doesn't make it any less real.

I haven't gone to get my nails done, or my highlights yet. If I didn't have to take the kittens in to the vet I'd probably just stay in my pajamas. The doctor put me back on Xanax yesterday, and that seemed to help me control the panic attacks and, thereby control some of my anger. I've had panic attacks since I was 19 for the most part I can control them. But when other issues crop up in my life, they can surprise me and come up full force.

I went to pick up BBQ for dinner and the people who own Cousin's BBQ have a son in Kyra's class. The owner told me that Kyra won several awards. Not surprising at all, the girl is smart... like I said. Just not smart enough to know that WASHING A SHOE BOX DOESN'R WORK!

I'm not even going to watch American Idol, Lost or Alias tonight. I'm going to bed. Hopefully, I'll sleep for a week.

The kittens are overly traumatized. They've got some sort of intestinal bacteria, but no worms (thank God!). They gave me some sort of pill popping contraption to shove that shit down their throat. With my dogs, it's real simple. Stick a pill in their mouth, hold their mouth shut and they'll swallow it. Done.

Alright, I'm hitting the shower then going to bed. Sweet dreams to me! kdgr